This is not the usual stuff I post here. This is something I wanted to share as I believe it's worth sharing. If you, like me, have suffered or still suffer from insomnia, please consider seeking professional help, watch videos and train your sleep schedule to sleep during the day. Take care of yourself.
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Back when I was in university and I couldn't sleep due to stress/anxiety I used to watch Ren and Stimpy and play computer games. This somehow helped soothe my mind and gave me a strange peace. Seeing the dawn, birds singing and cold wind, made me wanted to go for walks, which I did several times. Exploring so many parts of this beloved city I could never see the end of. So many mysteries to uncover. Still, I wonder if I could ever come back and it will be the same sensation. I love the memories I had there. Even walking on the street with 40° I wouldn't change any of what happened. It made me grow, so much.
I want you to understand that I felt scared. I was terrified. I was crying, I was helpless. It was my first time living alone, far away from my family. I wanted to give up after one week. I came back home but they convinced me to keep going. I did my best for 3 years but to no avail. In the end, I learnt to live alone, cook, and take care of myself. I'm still learning, I feel like I need to love myself a lot more, but I will get there. I am very happy that I can cook delicious meals and I don't need anyone. I am proud.
Yet, so many paths to follow. I believe in myself and I won't give up. I will keep fighting until I achieve my dream.
